Trying to get a grip...

Well, found out my asthma and allergies are acting up because we have wicked south wind which is the worse weather condition here for my asthma.  South wind blows any vog up from the Big Island over to Oahu to choke us all.  I'm PMSing for sure.  And I stopped taking my antidepressants for my IBS.  Yeah!  All the stress of my Dad's up coming surgery and mine.  Yippy.  So........I'm trying to not freak out.  It can all be explained.  I took my antidepressant tonight and will try and ween off of it again before my surgery.  Now is not ideal.    Didn't go to work today because of my allergies and asthma.  Stayed home and cleaned clutter like a freak.  I clean when I am fussy.  I found this picture of myself at my 'then' goal weight.

I was totally training for paddling and this was taken at the end of the mens Molokai to Oahu race with my Dad on my with the white shirt.  This was at the conclusion of paddling and cross training for over about 10 months straight.  I was over a hundred pounds lighter than I am today.  2002.

Then I found in todays email from the Secret this reading......I find the readings seem to always know exactly what I need to be reminded of.

So I am trying to pull up my big girl pants and get on with life.